going for it

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 If your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough.

This has really resonated with me as of late. I have never been one to settle for something that doesn't make me truly happy. As fortunate I am to have a career, I know that this career is not what my heart truly wants. It's a sad and somewhat scary realization to have when you're 26 and paying bills and planning a wedding. It's also a sad thought that money plays such a huge role in the decisions we make.

The questions of

"What if I fail?

"What if I can't afford my rent?"

"What if it's the wrong decision?"

"What if it doesn't make me happy in the end?"

There are so many "what if's" when it comes to making a big decision. Change is terrifying. But what is scaring me the most right now is that

time isn't slowing down

I'm settling for a career because of financial stability

I am not reaching my full potential

I'm not chasing my dreams aggressively enough

Lotsa little fears that take little nibbles out of my brain...and honestly hurt my little heart.

I have always been a dreamer. Always.

I envision something and mentally obsess over it. What could be. What I could accomplish. What joy I would get out of truly following my heart. However, I never take big leaps to try and bring these visions to fruition. I've definitely taken small steps and I've been fortunate to have success. I've also been fortunate to have failed too. With successes, come failures. That's just the reality of it.

But what if...

I could succeed?

That is always a driving force. More so recently.

I've decided that life is way too short to not go after what you truly want. It's time to really chase my dreams and start taking leaps. I'm excited and I'm terrified at the same time.

But I'm ready..